love – moiettoi

Guatemala with a teenager

Two weeks in to a trip to Central America. Charlie (my fifteen year old son), Lucas, and I are in Guatemala.

The purpose:

to connect with Charlie, to really spend time with him and get to know him and the great guy he is. They say that after a certain age, you see your kids less and less, it really hits home whe you have a kid who is very into his friends and being independent now.
to reset and recalibrate and take time to appreciate life and all the important stuff.
to practice correct thinking – our thoughts are just thoughts unless we believe them.
Feeling the Mayan culture.
Have adventures
Humility and Gratitude
Open heart and mind
Discover Women lead businesses (my interests)
Free ourselves from the constraints of ‘normal life’ and societal expectations
Show and be examples for Charlie
Help others whenever the opportunity arises
Have fun

The daily questions:

What are we doing?

Have you got the keys?

What’s the wifi?

Along with daily comments:

I want to go home

That’s a ‘seebs’ (no idea)

And Mum, Mum, Mum

‘Dry’

It is always interesting to travel with others. You really have to rely on each other, be patient, compromise, and be kind to yourself and the others in your group.

The moments! The views in Guatemala are spectacular, it’s a beautiful country and I love it. The volcanoes are magnificent, the people are kind and helpful.

We spent the first couple of nights in Antigua, resting after a long journey from New Zealand, we checked out the markets and looked around the Colonial town. We had our own tobacco and cacao ceremony on the rooftop of our hostel (aptly named Purpose Hostel), while watching the glowing lava from Mt Fuego which is constantly erupting.

We then headed to Lake Atitlan by bus, stopping in Pananchel and catching a small boat to San Pedro, where we had an Air bnb for 3 nights. San Pedro is a bustling lakeside town. We had some adventures there!

Saw a Mayan spiritual woman, who performed a tobacco ceremony.
Went to the most interesting secondhand bookshop, owned by an elderly Inuit woman who rescues dogs and cats.

Lucas:

Traveling in Guatemala for almost two weeks already. Leaving Lake Atitlán to move back to Antigua with the firm intention of hiking volcanos Pacaya, Acatenango & Fuego.

The Lake has welcomed us warmly offering a wonderful experience. The first few nights staying in San Pedro La Laguna. The boat ride was epic, the moment we embarqued onto the small boat to take us across the lake, two militaries were running checkups. Walking by these two guys rifles at hand and sitting right in front of them in the little boat, our heads at the same height as the rifles canon. It was a strange atmosphere as the guns were right there, at the same time the sun was getting lower in the sky shining its colourful rays. I remember that the three of us were smiley. Charlie & Rebekah being great accomplices laughing their way through the wait for the boat to depart.

The boat ride felt like a moment up in the air. Water was choppy, making the boat bang on every second wave. I remember Charlie & I looking at each other with smiles printed on our faces. Two kids having a bliss during a roller coaster ride.

From the deck to the Airbnb, the three of us packed in a tiny tuk tuk.

Walked down the narrow streets looking for a place to have dinner, first street food experience for Charlie & I together. We saw that barbecue on the side of the road grilling all sorts of meats. He was super keen on the experience, the curiosity & eagerness for adventure sparkling in his eyes.

From that moment I knew we were doing the right thing. The traveller state of mind already kicked in within..

A couple of days later, we went for a morning walk Rebekah and I searching for the local market. Because we got out late the market was gone, instead we found a little shop selling all sorts of items to perform ceremonies used in the Mayan Cosmology. Having experienced it before I got curious so we ventured into the shop. Having a chat with the shop owner, we explained the purpose of our travels here and mentioned our intention to connect with authentic Mayan wisdom holders through ceremonies. Straight away she recommended us two persons that could potentially help us, one of them being the daughter of a famous Mayan Healer here at the lake, el Tata Pedro Cruz. I had been to the yearly anniversary of his passing away in 2021.. On we went, on the journey of finding Nana Marina Cruz, which took us two days of rumbling around.

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Appointment taken. We meet with Nana Marina the following day.

The Ceremony was a deep personal reading into our lives through the Tabacco. The Wise Sacred Spirit of the plant speaks, guides, heals.. We were all moved. This is all we’d share about the deep personal ceremonial experience.

11:11

I have posted a blog post called Travelling Together on 11/11/25, and I thought I needed to write some further thoughts about this day, because it feels very meaningful today.

I attended a manifestation day on Sunday, facilitated by my Reiki teachers, Nic and Brooke. It was a powerful reminder about how guided we are. For example, we were asked to pick a small organza bag with an animal card and message in it. I often have an affinity towards owls, I believe they are spirit guides for me. I thought to myself, maybe I will choose an owl, and then thought that if I didn’t there would obviously be some other message that was meant for me and right at the time. Of course, out of the 25 face down cards to choose from, I chose an owl, and the message was pretty clear, that I need to take bold action on my dreams. It was a powerful reminder that I am guided and loved by the Universe. The goals that I have include building on the projects that align with my soul journey, such as this writing and sharing the journey, my Women’s Health Platform, GRRLFORGE, becoming digital nomads, working with our Horses, getting a dog, happy and healthy thriving children. The more I write, take steps and create, the more I see the path opening up in front of me.

Traveling together

R: I have been told that you don’t know someone until you go travelling together. During October, Lucas and I went to Lombok and Bali in Indonesia. We really had a great time. I preferred Lombok, we had a great experience there. We did yoga, and breathwork, and a practice called Family Constellations, an elemental cacao ceremony, great food, and some beautiful time together. I started to make a list of sweet things that Lucas has done for me:

He walks closest to the road to protect me.
He says ‘I don’t look at other girls’.
He spoke lovingly about me with others at the Family Constellation session (which was vulnerable for both of us).
He remembers my morning routines with pinpoint accuracy.
He knows what to expect with my monthly cycle.
He asked some French girls for some sanitary pads for me because they are very difficult to find in Lombok and expensive!
He feeds me chips.
He makes sure I have enough coffee.
He looks at me lovingly.
He offered me his own underwear and handkerchief when I got my period haha.

Its fair to say that I very much enjoyed travelling with him.

L: Uluwatu, Bali: It’s been a couple of weeks (again) since the last writing activity. Now we are connecting with our story telling, for the first time we are sitting together to lay down some content. Maybe I should say that we are making an attempt to, as technology is being fancy and seemingly not letting us access to what we intend to. Creative energy and modern technology aren’t always a match, something to remember. In the meantime we try to do what can be done with the available resources.

I am writing down these few lines meanwhile Rebekah is spreading cards on the bed for a draw and channel some guidance for the day. Important thing to note, she is running at the moment on one (Bali) coffee only.. She is doing so well handling the frustration. Maybe it is time to get re-caffeinated before any further manoeuvre.

A challenging week

It has been a challenging week. My child has had some challenges. I’m putting it out to the universe that they will find their place. I’m here, and so are many who love him. I see he has an army of guides and angels behind him.

This has happened while I’ve been premenstrual and now menstrual, a low energy part of my cycle, so I’m extra tired. I’ve been grateful for the support around me, my parents, my friends, and my Love. It’s a challenge for me because I like to do things on my own, to make sure that I can do things on my own. However, the village is always there when I need it and I really appreciate it. So much.

There has been progress on the visa application, which is promising. And there have been times of light throughout the dark, and I am grateful.

Lucas

We are now getting closer. The visa application we submitted in early August has been denied for the work side of it. After making a few modifications and providing some more documents to the Immigration, we have finally been granted a Visitor Visa, which will allow us to live together for a decent amount of time while we gather the missing pieces to fit into the partnership work visa.

This is already a win for us, this journey is teaching us to receive, appreciate and be grateful for the small steps.

I guess a part of what we are experiencing now is to work on the will to receive without having expectations and cultivate gratitude regardless. Without expectations, no frustration, right ? Easy to say, beautiful to read. For a human being incarnated in this life, what exercise to practice..

Wisdom teaching from the Universe is most certainly humbling.

On a different note, we have booked our first trip together!

I am ready

Lucas

This past week has been hectic.. Right now, I feel like sitting in silence for the next 10 upcoming days.

We finalized the application for the partnership visa. Few documents and medical checkups were missing, we now complied with everything so far and the application is getting processed by the Immigration services.

The following event was to reach out to Rebekah’s father.

Her parents are struggling to accept me. Why ? Because of my age. The pace of our relationship raises concerns and worries. Love happening too fast.. Is it a thing ?

Seeing Rebekah torn between judgments and resentment from her parents I asked her what could I do in this situation.

She said : « what just sprung up is a bit weird, but you could talk to my dad »

(See messages shared in Groundless)

I already wanted to a few weeks ago, when still in New Zealand, to get a chance to open myself to them and pour my heart out.

I can put myself in their shoes and understand quite a lot. The only thing I’m asking for is a chance to be myself, to have time and space to show myself loud and clear before getting judged or facing resentment..

Who knows.. In their hearts, deep down themselves they might have already welcomed me.

Time will tell.

I Surrender.

The conversation with Rebekah’s father is leading towards a phone call. At the moment it’s logistically complicated to organize a conversation face to face as I remain in Australia.

The last main event (but not least), is my work situation. The place I’m working for at the moment has changed a lot and seemingly lost some human values. I don’t recognize it anymore.

I feel some strong guidance here. Entering a shifting process that is opening the path towards my goals. I feel this period of change as a message from the Universe. It is time for an internal change and here are the prémisses.

Connect with my aim, surrender to my Intention.

I feel in the right place at the right time even though it’s a challenging position.

Shift operates for me to get rid of something to allow something better, greater, more aligned to come into my life.

My intention is to get out of the thoroughbred industry to focus on equine therapy. Healing with Horses.

Time to adapt. To find myself and feel myself.

The last time I experienced a similar shifting situation was a few days before I met Rebekah.. It led me to meet the Love of my Life.

It’s happening, we are growing, evolving, and it is happening fast.

I AM READY.

Bex

Wow… that’s a hard act to follow. So much internal navigation and reflection. I Love than man. I reflect on my journey, and conditioning. My mind has been worried about our Love not being accepted by people, my family in particular. It’s hard to describe how brave I think Lucas is for taking a step towards my parents. I feel that devotion and commitment deeply. I think that some of my fears about our relationship are being mirrored by my Mum and Dad, they have a deep love for me. Gabby Bernstein in her book Super Attractor emphasises that the energy we carry—especially fear—attracts matching experiences. If we have a fear of abandonment, failure, or unworthiness, we may unconsciously attract situations that reinforce those feelings, even in loving relationships. This is a big piece of inner work for me.

I have started a new job, and I have been reflecting on what should be my priorities for the first three months. And in addition to that, ensure that Lucas and I are working towards achieving what we must achieve in this life together. I figure that we surrender together and keep doing our inner work.

A question I have asked myself today, reflecting on the teachings of Dr Wayne Dyer, is how can I best serve the Universe?

Part of serving the Universe is being relentlessly true to myself, and my Knowing. I don’t know what the future holds. I know that not everyone will “get it”, and that’s ok. That really is ok. I surrender.

I know I am drawn to supporting women, and have always found opportunities to do this. I know I want to celebrate women, and provide insights and tools for long term health through the woman lifecycle. I know I want to create a sanctuary and space for people to safely retreat, and heal.

This is not a very funny blog entry, and we are not teasing each other about creatine or procrastinating, or losing each other at the airport, we are not working through any deep personal emotions, yet we are working through how we fit in the world as individuals and as a unit.

I AM READY TOO