We have had a challenging conversation around an upcoming trip, and the rationale for me having made it shorter than what Lucas would like. This was difficult because I am really looking forward to this trip to Bali, it will be a good amount of time for us to spend together alone, the longest time I’ve had alone on a trip with a man for many years! I’m sure we’ll work through this, however I don’t want to have everything my way, I genuinely want to be able to work through things.
What I am discovering in myself is a softness that I have never had in a relationship before. I am not as determined to be so independent anymore. While I am still myself, I find myself wanting to make decisions together and asking for his opinion and advice.
Following the course of events that happened recently have been a bit of a marathon. Although through the entire process there has been an omnipresent guidance from Higher Energies.
For starters, the conversation with Rebekah’s parents.
Communication is a Blessing.
When Rebekah’s parents asked for a bit of time to consider the phone call, I have to admit that I felt unsettled. My mind started pulling different kinds of triggers. Rebekah is well aware of some of my conditioning, with her support and guidance I crawled out of the rabbit hole to find an equanimous state of mind.
In the meantime my work conditions kept deteriorating, overcoming the legal worker rights, to the point where one can wonder about human values. I am talking here about one of the most famous Australian thoroughbred stud farm.
Again, the Universe provides, full of wisdom.
I set an intention : Getting out of the thoroughbreds racing industry.
Friday afternoon 8th of August, interview for a new job. I am told 24h for an answer.
Universe sensed that I was ready for a change, a change’s about to come..
Saturday evening, one week after the original message, Rebekah’s parents reached out to carry on with the phone call.
Sunday morning, beautiful sunny day. Not a single cloud in the sky. As I wake up, an intense feeling of being held. Change is happening today, I feel it.
Phone rings around midday. The conversation with Rebekah’s Mom and Dad is paved with compassion. Heart opening is the Intention on both sides. Afterwards I realized how much strength and courage it takes on their side to show open wounds, express vulnerability and still, with Love to a young man that they barely know. Taking on this Healing Journey for the Love of their daughter.
Love transcends.
Is it actually only recently, as I am writing these words that I am FULLY able to put myself in their shoes, vibrating with empathy and compassion. I remember asking Rebekah « why are they not putting themselves in my shoes ? »
I understand now. Let me tell that IT IS A BLESSING to take on the first step and putting yourself into someonelse’s shoes.
I am filled with Gratitude.
What a lesson in the act of writing with an open heart..
Gratitude to the Universe.
LOVE & COMPASSION are emanating Higher wavelenghts frequency.
Conversation held in loving intentions, closured with unconditional support and Love.
(Could potentially mention some part of the conversation in Groundless)
GRATITUDE.
It is now the early afternoon, wind in its sails, things are in motion.
Phone rings a second time..
Green light for the new job, my position is accepted. Cherry on top of the cake, I’m given 3 days before starting in the new role.
It’s now my turn to make phone calls to leave my current position.
An strong intuition was to call a good friend of mine before calling my boss in case conversation would go south and I’d find myself homeless for a few days..
My friend was ready to host me if something would happen. What a Blessing.
Conversation with my boss lasted about 1 minute and 20 seconds. His reaction was driven by anger and feeling of loosing control over one of his workers. He threatened that he would make a particular effort to give me an awful reference for further employment and that I had to leave the farm RIGHT AWAY.
My reaction ? FREEDOM
The burden on this place, unethical manners and disrespectful people, gone. My shoulders felt lighter, my lungs could breathe without obstruction anymore.
A large smile illuminated my face.
Called Rebekah euphoric while packing my stuff. During the conversation she shared her relief for me to walk away from a toxic work situation and her full support. Our energies synched into enthousiasme, celebration and of course Gratitude.
An hour later I was getting picked up by my friend who not only hosted me for three days, but opened his home’s doors physically and figuratively. Made me feel part of his family.
Story about the three days stay at L. to be read in Groundless. More than a friendship, a devotion to family. « Cuídate Viejo, cuídate
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