Lucas
This past week has been hectic.. Right now, I feel like sitting in silence for the next 10 upcoming days.
We finalized the application for the partnership visa. Few documents and medical checkups were missing, we now complied with everything so far and the application is getting processed by the Immigration services.
The following event was to reach out to Rebekah’s father.
Her parents are struggling to accept me. Why ? Because of my age. The pace of our relationship raises concerns and worries. Love happening too fast.. Is it a thing ?
Seeing Rebekah torn between judgments and resentment from her parents I asked her what could I do in this situation.
She said : « what just sprung up is a bit weird, but you could talk to my dad »
(See messages shared in Groundless)
I already wanted to a few weeks ago, when still in New Zealand, to get a chance to open myself to them and pour my heart out.
I can put myself in their shoes and understand quite a lot. The only thing I’m asking for is a chance to be myself, to have time and space to show myself loud and clear before getting judged or facing resentment..
Who knows.. In their hearts, deep down themselves they might have already welcomed me.
Time will tell.
I Surrender.
The conversation with Rebekah’s father is leading towards a phone call. At the moment it’s logistically complicated to organize a conversation face to face as I remain in Australia.
The last main event (but not least), is my work situation. The place I’m working for at the moment has changed a lot and seemingly lost some human values. I don’t recognize it anymore.
I feel some strong guidance here. Entering a shifting process that is opening the path towards my goals. I feel this period of change as a message from the Universe. It is time for an internal change and here are the prémisses.
Connect with my aim, surrender to my Intention.
I feel in the right place at the right time even though it’s a challenging position.
Shift operates for me to get rid of something to allow something better, greater, more aligned to come into my life.
My intention is to get out of the thoroughbred industry to focus on equine therapy. Healing with Horses.
Time to adapt. To find myself and feel myself.
The last time I experienced a similar shifting situation was a few days before I met Rebekah.. It led me to meet the Love of my Life.
It’s happening, we are growing, evolving, and it is happening fast.
I AM READY.
Bex
Wow… that’s a hard act to follow. So much internal navigation and reflection. I Love than man. I reflect on my journey, and conditioning. My mind has been worried about our Love not being accepted by people, my family in particular. It’s hard to describe how brave I think Lucas is for taking a step towards my parents. I feel that devotion and commitment deeply. I think that some of my fears about our relationship are being mirrored by my Mum and Dad, they have a deep love for me. Gabby Bernstein in her book Super Attractor emphasises that the energy we carry—especially fear—attracts matching experiences. If we have a fear of abandonment, failure, or unworthiness, we may unconsciously attract situations that reinforce those feelings, even in loving relationships. This is a big piece of inner work for me.
I have started a new job, and I have been reflecting on what should be my priorities for the first three months. And in addition to that, ensure that Lucas and I are working towards achieving what we must achieve in this life together. I figure that we surrender together and keep doing our inner work.
A question I have asked myself today, reflecting on the teachings of Dr Wayne Dyer, is how can I best serve the Universe?
Part of serving the Universe is being relentlessly true to myself, and my Knowing. I don’t know what the future holds. I know that not everyone will “get it”, and that’s ok. That really is ok. I surrender.
I know I am drawn to supporting women, and have always found opportunities to do this. I know I want to celebrate women, and provide insights and tools for long term health through the woman lifecycle. I know I want to create a sanctuary and space for people to safely retreat, and heal.
This is not a very funny blog entry, and we are not teasing each other about creatine or procrastinating, or losing each other at the airport, we are not working through any deep personal emotions, yet we are working through how we fit in the world as individuals and as a unit.
I AM READY TOO
moiettoi 